So the palhoncho finally answered my question on tumblr!:D

[zabrainah]

So here is what she said:
"ahh, right sorry! my brain’s not being very cooperative at present, to the point where emails and messages are causing anxiety attacks, so i really don’t think i’ll be the best person to be palhoncho! i’m sorry i haven’t messaged anyone before now, but as i said - my brain is being shitty." (i copied and pasted it from my ask)

So yeah
there isn't really anything to explain :I